Trying to get through today without getting upset and crying, although I can never get through this date without it but mostly do this privately. Mum and Dad you helped me so much with what was the most traumatic time in my life. You took responsibility for Corrina and Dane while we concentrated on Anthony. Mike was working but was and still.is deeply hurt inside. We lost Anthony this day 15 years ago his twin appeared but was trapped in himself, little did we know that this was to become 'normal'. Our family went through hell and back, and I asked him up there 'why?'. Then 10 n half weeks later I lost Dad. I was devastated, the strong man of our family, wiped out so quick. We took care of you Mum but then you were given a blow as well, you had dementia. You were slowly losing everything but still remembered your family. You later became so frail you had to go to a special care home but quite soon after that you fell asleep and never woke up. I no longer had my parents in my life, I felt and still feel lost. You never got to see Anthony in his home Dad, you never got to celebrate all your great grandchildren. Mum you sang to Anthony and always visited him, you both were a massive part of our lives and it feels empty. I have lost the 2 people that gave me life and I have lost my eldest son, trapped in another world somewhere. I AM BROKEN 💔💔💔